FINALLY A DARK KNIGHT (:

went to sentosa yesterday! :D




sat the cable car



went to dolphin lagoon





went to the beach



the du gong~


the giant japanese crab =O

went to underwater world

many more pictures but lazy upload haha

:D

went to WWW with Karissa, Kaiyih, Hweepeng & Siewting yesterday! It was fun but tiring!





the shiok river is shiok because the water is warm!!! it was so dam cold & we were like shivering outside when we move from one place to the other..



This is the yakult !!! haha.. see the yakult bucket there? when the bucket is full the bell will ring and ppl will all go under and wait for..


water to splash on them!!! WOO






so nice to hug LOL



This looks scary.. only hweepeng & siewting tried..





Ular-lah was the most fun! :D we went thrice and the raft can fit 5 ppl jus nice!





and there was the foam pool but didnt have any pics of that =(

more pics in karissa's camera!!

okok.. I better stop here before some1 dies of jealousy!!! hahaha jus joking =P

It has been abt half a year since i met or talk to him.

and I wonder if we will ever talk again.... even as a friend?




x3 wizarcleric
but does wizarcleric x3 washing powder too?
xiyifen has a feeling of being thrown to one side sometimes=(

BWAHAHAHA.

I just realised my name is in the list of 2001 National piano and violin competition winners ( under semi-finalists of the intermediate category) on the National Arts Council website.

http://www.nac.gov.sg/com/com02a.asp?id=36



NOT BAD EH.. heh heh XD


14 dec

I went to watch the finals of the competition of my category alone. lol. Left only 4 participants. No. 11 15 18 & 20. Final round was concertos.. and their concertos were all those loud and showy kind.. so even if i manage to go in finals, if i play my concerto i will only malu myself, cuz concerto nothing showy to show. haha.

In the end.. they were NO first prize.

2nd : no.18
3rd: no.20

honourable mention: no.11

Honourble mention prize is for those finalists which didnt get 1st 2nd or 3rd but played well...

went with my father and uncle JEFF to watch the semi-final round of the piano senior category today

all of the semi-finalists impressed me:D

No. 4 11 15 16(withrew) 18 20 22


by the way, if u are curious, this is how the stage looks like :



hohoho. scary right?


we made a bet on which participants will go in to the finals

Me : 11 18 20

My Father : 11 15 22

Uncle Jeff : 4 11 20

in the end, 11 15 18 20 went in... hohoho... I WON !!!!!!!!!
my father says i can be the judge already.WAHAHAHA.

sigh...

i am disappointed..

didnt even manage to get in semi-final again zzzzzzz

out of 4 times i took part... i only managed to get in twice.. in the year 1999 & 2001

AHHHHH.. i think the reason could be i slipped some notes cuz nervous and the judge didnt let me play the showy part !!!!! what the... they stop me when i was reaching that part !!! Somemore my remaining songs are not showy enough... those pros like to play songs which are showy.. very loud and those which show off technique

=(

ALLIANCE FRANCAISE








thanks all ( karissa, kaiyih and ernah) who came to support me!!! (:

some funny things happen today though during the compeitition

1) one participant wore sandals and clothes which look like an auntie going to the market which obviously is unacceptable..................
2) one participant had constipated facial expression throughout his whole playing LOL
3) better not mention cuz i think it's too embarassing for the participant
4) another participant was too nervous that when the judge told her to continue her next piece, she told the judge that she was unable to play anymore and walk off

lol... dots dots dots

haha still waiting for the results which will come out tmr.. =x *prays hard*

16 hours more...









i HOPE that everything will turn out well *prays hard*

do all these pictures make u drool ? =P I had all these for lunch with my piano teacher n other piano mates after our mini recital or sort of rehearsal at MSM last sat!! Ms Tan ( piano teacher) treated all of us SWENSONS at holland V !!! yay. haha. how nice of her. Ms Tan is the coolest piano teacher i've ever met. pretty and pro xD

I got to know some new friends too..


there =) a pic of us after the feast..
wang huan, Ms Tan, huiyin, yuezhen, li en, ME

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BOO.

long time never update =/ my blog is dead anyway lol

nothing much happen these days. The whole NOV and DEC holidays i have been rotting at home most of the time.

FINALLY today i am supposed to go back to my grandpa's house in malaysia johor with my mum and sis and apparently my father doesnt allow me to go cuz of the competition. 8 and 9 dec they are going to genting and i cant go too cuz it MAY crash with my competition. sad man. This ALWAYS happens.

and BY THE WAY, 6 DEC IS COMING VERY SOON. OMG.

if u guys are too free or have nothing to do on that day, can come down and support me~ =) and admission is FREE !!! Only need to pay if i go in finals, but i don think i will go that far. HAHA.

Details are below:

National piano and violin competition 2007
Date: 6 dec
Catergory: Quarter- finals (senior)
Time : 3pm
Venue: Alliance Francaise( it's very near newton mrt station)

I'm no 13 so my reporting time is 4.40pm but it starts at 3. So, u guys can come anytime between 3 to 4.40pm~~

^^

No more worries for A levels. I can now concentrate on my piano. (=


44 days --> National Compeitition


PLS, it's not any compeition, it's a National compeition
SO PLS PRACTISE HARD !!!!!!!!

Yesterday was officially the last day of school. Had farewell assembly, but it was quite disappointing. Nothing interesting. There were only slide shows, speeches by the principal and teachers and songs by some teachers.

After that, we took some pictures, cuz it may be the last time we are officially together =(
well, maybe not the last stay in pjc for me...


empty LT


while i live, i learn... lol


OUR CT CLASS F2-67


us in our empty CT classroom



as u can see... we "LOVE" PJC lol


more pictures... shall post it next time...

WOW YOU ARE THE BEST MOTHER IN THE WORLD MAN !! BEST IN JOHOR BEST IN JB BEST IN EVERYWHERE !!!!!!! * CLAPSSS*

what kind of mother is she? Everyday after coming back from work, she will either complain about her colleges in front of my father or sit in the living room and watch her tv, not tv programmes, but her stocks and shares.

Few days ago was my father, now my mother. Is it because they think that hitting their own child is a COOL ACT ? lol. Act pro? Use 苍蝇拍 hit me. It's not like they have 好榜样 . Just because she wanted me to wipe the floor and i didnt do it and she's making as BIG FUSS out of it. Apparently i didnt say i don wan to wipe, but she just keep nagging like a machine gun all day and night. She even said : " If you don wan to wipe the floor, i tell u, FROM TODAY ONWARDS, i wont wash or iron YOUR clothes. WHOA THREATEN AH? HAHA like i care, help me wash clothes SO? BIG DEAL? On every Sat when she has no work, she only knows how to do housework, and nag day and night. is that call 好榜样？And she only does housework once per week, isnt that a mother's job? Somemore i didnt say i wont help her, just that i keep procastinating.

WOAH, from morning until now still making a fuss OUT OF IT.

Sometimes i really wonder sia, is it her mouth got physical problem? or is it some kind of mouth disease? her mouth just cant stop moving.

Great man. This is the 3rd time my dad slap and hit me. Hit and slap not as in only hit one time and never use force but as in really hard. And cuz of that i slept at 4am last night.

I am damn hurt. I feel so sad. cried until my eyes became swollen. I've never felt so sad before. Irfaan thanks alot for comforting me, even at 3 am, i really felt much better. why parents just don understand us? I couldnt sleep last night cuz my mind was full of studies so i wanted on the com to find ppl to talk so i will feel better, but he woke up and saw me using the com and shouted at me, so i talk back, and he started hitting and slapping.

didnt go sch today. couldnt wake up. know what? Just as i was feeling better Mr tham called me.

Mr tham :hello, is this jieying?

Me: ya

Mr tham: the principal wants to see you on wednesday

Me: orh

Mr tham: at 8am, make sure you come to sch ah!

Me: ok. i will ( actually in my heart i was saying see principal see simi sai la)

I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL
I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL

I DONT WANT TO SEE PRINCIPAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyone's right. There isn't any time to be sad about prelim results anymore. I must move on!!!

A levels are coming in less than 27 days.

27 DAYS !!!!! THAT'S less than 4 weeks !!!!

who's not stressed? argh i know it's hard. It's even harder for me because I have piano competition at the end of the year(15 days after A levels) , hence i cannot let go of my piano completely. studies? piano? how to cope with both? there isn't even enough time for studies alone!

It's really gonna to be hard. haiz.

AS I EXPECTED AND PREDICTED :

I FAILED WITH FLYING COLOURS

again and again

I dunno what to say.

sigh.

I hate JC LIFE to the core!!! I really do. I wish i can just quit JC now.

yesterday was quite a "suay" day.

At first, i almost stepped on a caterpillar(almost flatten it by only like 1cm) and then later stepped on DEAD COCKROACH. eww =.= . My sis told me not to step on it but too late! My shoe already landed on it. It was so disgusting because all the juice came out. YUCKS. And my sis was like kept laughing and laughing madly at me. lol

And then, we went to 7-eleven and saw an offer which says mushroom soup which was $1.90 became $1, so we decided to give it a try cuz we never try before. But, the colour was light yellow but we expected it to be dark brown(we thought is the soup which they used 4 the mash potato) and the cup was so dirty and the soup looks yucky. eek! so we did a guilty thing and just left the "dirty" soup beside the machine and left. =.=. I know thats a bad thing to do. i still feel guilty abt it. lol.

And just we were sort of rushing home, some lady stopped and wanted us to do a BRA survey for her. -_-" ok thats suay. Isnt it better if she find older adults to do that survey? lol she was too desperate liao, because she said she was there for 3 hours and nobody wants to do her survey .

AND wednesday i am going to die. die terribly. i dont wish to see my results. i already know what kind of results im going to get.

HAIZ~~~~~~~

PRELIMS ARE OVER !!!!!!!!!!!
( which also means that A LEVEL is coming in 40 days time)

ahh. ahh. AHHHHH !!! stress stress stress


GREAT. I guess im going to fail everything again. =(

TODAY I HAD STOMACH PAIN. DURING MATHS PAPER 2. T_T

I never went to the toilet during exams in my whole life lah, cuz waste time, but today i really couldnt take it. Actually i was still deciding whether to go or not, cuz i thought i can still bear with the pain, but in the end really very pain lah so must go lol, if not cant do the paper. thankfully i felt much better after that..

luckily still managed to finish the paper ~ but i think i will still fail lol

* hoping for miracle to happen* lalalala...

lol... now is 2.30am and i am still in front of the com, NOT studying, despite that tomorrow im having exams ?! despite that i have to wake up at 6 tomorrow?! LOL what else can i say except hopeless.. 无药可救。。。 haiz..



HOPELESS !!!!!!

my parents... my parents.. my parents... sigh!!!!!!!!!! so irritating

MOTHER : LIEWJIEYING !!!! 你开电脑做什么?!!?!!!? 跟我去抹地， 换你的床单，收拾你的桌子， 洗你的鞋子，还有扫地!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FATHER : 为什么你还没有练琴 !!!!!!!!!!!! 现在几点了!!!!! 读什么书, 书什么时候都可以读!!!!!! 现在跟我去练你的琴!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ME : ZZZZZZZZZ A lvl 还练什么琴 if don have A lvl you tell me to practise 6 hours a day i also dont mind la but now is A LVLS YOU KNOW

whenever they at home, they nag non stop. Why are parents always like that? they only know how to nag without any reason, only know how to say study study study !!!!!!! practise piano !!!!!!! wth...do THEY know WHAT difficulties i face now. MONDAY is prelims and im already feeling so #$&#%&# and they only 火上加热.


Do they even know how i feel now? stressed by stupid A lvl feel like dying!!!!!

Take a look at this :



HAHAHA.. funny


ANYWAY , today our school celebrated teachers' day, BUT before that, we had canal walk(3.2KM) in the morning.



for an ultimate ponner like me, it is a miracle that i went school today. wahaha. We took around 1 hour to walk 3.2km. LOl. The walking back journey was not pleasant because the floor was muddy and yucky and we all dirtied our shoes with mud.

Then, we had teachers' day concert. The concert was funny. Mr Dennis Yeo dressed himself in skirt !!! LOL..

Then went back to secondary school, then went to S'pore Arts Council at city hall to register for my piano competition thing.

my father' s nagging me to slp... got to go

Weeeeeeeee... I'm 18 !!!!!


Thanks to ALL who wished me !!!!!!!!!!!



there are only 4 small candles and not 8 cuz we were lazy... wahahahaah

haiz but i think this is the worse birthday i've ever had...

~~THE RISING STAR ~~
featuring
MACAO YOUTH SYMPHONY ORCHESTRA
@
VICTORIA CONCERT HALL


piano soloist with the symphony orchestra


the macao youth symphony orchestra


NICE CONCERT !!!! I wish one day i could play in a symphony orchestra too @_@

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!


Know my results already... Got 84/100 for my LTCL piano exam which is a distinction WEEEEEE (:


I AM HAPPY ABT MY PIANO RESULTS BUT I AM STRESSED ABOUT MY STUDIES !!!!!!!!

HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIGH

79 DAYS

seriously i really dunno how i am going to make it. Everytime i see the load that i have to study, i feel like fainting, and i guess the reason why i always log in maple is to run away from all these loads of work. haiz. the load of work which i am referring to is really ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT. GP is super pathetic. Chinese lit is super pathetic. Maths and chem also didnt manage to pass. PHYSICS. even worse. Just trying to improve maths and chem which are the subjects which i dont hate that much already pulled down my motivation.

HOW ?!!!!!!!!!! everytime after i had tuition i feel like dying. everytime i tried to do work, i feel like dying. THAT'S THE REASON WHY I ALWAYS PLAY MAPLE, TO RUN AWAY FROM
ALL THESE WORK.


I guess ALL mothers are the same. Every sun when she is at home she will machine gun at me and my sis. Whatever we do, she will scold. Once she sees us, she will start to scold, even we just walk past her, so the best is not to let her see us. Every Sat when she's at home she always ask me to wipe the floor, do this do that, tidy up my table bla bla bla and she'll pinch me and say we really make her so angry. If she sees us in front of the com, she'll nag EVEN MORE.

woo while im blogging here she comes... once the door opens and the machine gun starts again

went to MORE THAN WORDS and saw them putting these on display. HAHAHA



CREATIVE RIGHT?

many advised me not to go for the SP band concert, and actually i also dont intend to go, but in the end i still went, dunno why, maybe i still cant forget. If not because my classmate is also going, i wont go de. So wad if i saw u? or u saw me? u wont think i exist anymore ba... u'll just ignore me... although u said u wont ignore again? wad rubbish? so i should just go and leave. haiz. although it is a nice concert, but that's not wad is really nice to me. It has been so long le.. u really really want me to disappear from your life, if that would make u happier, maybe i should






我的话语是多余.
想像的未来不会到来
继续逞强也显得幼稚.

不应该再等不会到来的简讯
不想放弃是执迷不悟,
说想开只是安慰

也许放弃是最好的办法吧..
不让空虚在我的天空盘旋..
因为故事总要有尾声,
即使是默剧,也有安静的结束坑总

FINAL DECISION : MOVE ON ~~~~~~~~~


95 DAYS MORE. IS IT ENOUGH ?????


I CAN MAKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEEN THE PRINCIPAL THE VERY FIRST THING TODAY MORNING.

when the principal saw me, she was like "oh, jieying, u again ah." this shows that i've seen her so often that even she recognised me.

She didnt forced me to retain or anything, but she explained to me and my father that i could be wasting my time in jc if i cant make it for A levels at the end of this year. i could end up with nothing, not even with an A lvl cert if i fail.



ONLY 3 MONTHS LEFT.


I really feel very very very very confused. if i continue, I doubt i can do well for all my subjects, especially CHINESE. And if i fail, i have no where to go. i end up with NOTHING.

IF i retain, i'll be all alone in another class, with people all i dunno and i'll feel left out. And if thinking i have more time , i'll just slack again and continue lazying around.

my GOAL is to get in yong siew toh conservatory if possible. However, one needs a full A lvl cert to get in cuz it's part of NUS and go for their audition which is held in january and march. In addition, they only take in abt 5-10 people who plays piano every year, which means only the really good ones can get in. So, it doesnt mean that if i pass A lvl i can 100% go in. wad if i don get in? do i have a back up plan? and if i only pass A lvls, i cant get into other faculties in NUS. still, i end up with NOTHING.

sigh. nothing can describe wad i feel now. extremely ultimately confused. =/
seems like my father and uncle jeff think that retain is a better choice for me but my friends advised me to move on. 3 months, is it enough?
so many different opinions, now i feel even more confused.
WADS MORE, i have to make a decision BY TOMORROW. It's already 11 .30pm and i still cant make up my mind.

SIGH

the shroom is bigger than the orange mush >.<


school starts all over again.. feeling sian sian sian~
im going to see the principal on 25th july. sian sian sian~
tmr got physics test at 6pm. sian sian sian~
i dunno why i have no heart to study. sian sian sian~

RANDOM :


maple in real life (X


aren't these ribbon pigs adorable?


lol... how creative


on the package:
ENORMEX
(for superman and big boys)
safe! this condom has been thoroughly tested on an Africa Bull Elephant then rigorously rinsed and sterilized before packed for sale.



o_O this strange insect appeared at my blk








14th july was college day. So yeah, as u all know, I performed 2 solo pieces( Chopin Waltz Op 18 & ppl who fight from FF7) during the interlude and played some pieces before the whole thing starts to entertain the audience.

After the whole thing ends, wad upset me a bit was that Mr Tham was the one distributing packet drinks and he saw me, then gave me that look and said " OO YOU ARE USEFUL FOR ONCE ! "
for once? oh does that mean that i've been useless all the while? lol

After that performance, i felt like im famous. HAHA. that feeling is so good. Everyone was like looking at me after that wherever i go la. =.=. when i was walking to cck mrt station, suddenly someone from o6S17 which i dunno approached me and told me i played well. lol. It seems like everywhere i go i receive praises. wheee~~~ i felt a sense of achievement.

Today... WAS SUPER SUAY LA. I WAS LIKE LATE FOR SCH FOR 1 SEC. Everyone was running to sch la cuz the gate was going to close and then i heard a voice "THOSE 4 PPL STOP THERE!!!!" How am i suppose to know who are those 4? that 2pid cameron yaw let all the others go and PULLED ME OUT. HE GRABBED ME SO "VIOLENTLY" that my bag almost dropped. $@%*(@$*)$. SOMEMORE HE CONFISCATED ALL OUR EZ-LINKS. We can only get our cards from him at 6pm. SUAY SUAY SUAY.

Today went with karissa n siew ting n jeremy to the new christian fellowship organised by our own pioneers. feel that i've been drifting away from God,maybe it's time i should go for the fellowship and seek to him XD

14th july was college day. So yeah, as u all know, I performed 2 solo pieces( Chopin Waltz Op 18 & ppl who fight from FF7) during the interlude and played some pieces before the whole thing starts to entertain the audience.

After the whole thing ends, wad upset me a bit was that Mr Tham was the one distributing packet drinks and he saw me, then gave me that look and said " OO YOU ARE USEFUL FOR ONCE ! "
for once? oh does that mean that i've useless all the while? lol

After that performance, i felt like im famous. HAHA. that feeling is so good. Everyone was like looking at me after that wherever i go la. =.=. when i was walking to cck mrt station, suddenly someone from S17 which i dunno approached me and told me i played well. lol. It seems like everywhere i go i receive praises. wheee~~~ i felt a sense of achievement.

Today... WAS SUPER SUAY LA. I WAS LIKE LATE FOR 1 SEC. Everyone was running to sch la cuz the gate was going to close and then i heard a voice "THOSE 4 PPL STOP THERE!!!!" How am i suppose to know who are those 4? that 2pid cameron yaw let all the others go and PULLED ME OUT. HE GRABBED ME SO "VIOLENTLY" that my bag almost dropped. $@%*(@$*)$. SOMEMORE HE CONFISCATED ALL OUR EZ-LINKS. We can only get our cards from him at 6pm. SUAY SUAY SUAY.

Today went with karissa n siew ting n jeremy to the new christian fellowship organised by our own pioneers. feel that i've been drifting away from God, so now i should go for the fellowship and seek to him XD

UUUUS

CAN I SAY QUIT SCHOOL NOW ?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


just got back my chinese papers today, and i cried like mad. i cant take it. i feel so hurt. It's not like i never try. i did try. Even it's U grade again, y must it be such a pathetic U ? and somemore i thought my chinese at least still got a bit of hope, but apparently NO. It is my greatest disappointment in fact. Somemore my U grade is such a pathetic U grade. My language paper. 12/65. HAHA REALLY A JOKE MAN. 12 ?! i might as well tear the paper and burn it. Compo. 28/70. Might as well use the paper to wipe ur butt la. chi lit. EVEN WORSE. 20.5/100. Use the paper as incense paper even better la.
WHY IS MY CHINESE EVEN WORSE THAN MY OTHER SUBJECTS? I REALLY DON UNDERSTAND.

i simply feel so ~@$@%## now. wad do i keep getting this kind of grades? MY common test : UUUUU. NOW UUUUS which doesnt make any difference.
i really feel so discouraged and depressed. This isn't the first time i getting this kind of grades, this is already the 3rd time. why is it happening time and again

I SIMPLY FEEL THAT I SHOULD GIVE EVERYTHING UP

I feel so discouraged. feel so hopeless. feel so 绝望. I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING !!!!!! I WISHED I CAN JUST GIVE UP A LEVELS. Is it that i am not capable enough to do A levels? why do i keep getting UUUUUUUUU???!!! keep failing all the time. I fail until numb le

Once again my Mid year results is shit. I failed like almost everything AGAIN. It's not like i never put in any effort. I studied. I tried. I wonder what will happen to me this time, after seeing the principal( already the 3rd time im drinking coffee with her). Sigh. I don even know if i have the chance to work even harder for my prelims or not. I don even know if i have the chance to stay in PJC.I will ONLY know what will happen after 28 July(meet the parents). I simply have no mood to study..

Im already feeling so negative cuz of that person, although i know that person doesn't give damn about me at all. If my results weren't so bad, i wont be feeling so miserable now. At least if i pass it will give me a sense of achievement but NO, i didnt even manage to pass even 1 subject. Can u believe that my BEST grade is only a sub-pass ?!

well, im performing piano on college day(14 july). Im playing la campanella i guess and another piece(not confirm yet), and Im playing for the principal tmr. scary. =x Im always there to watch that person's performance, of cuz i wished that that person is also there to see me perform, but guess not....................sigh.

U told me u wont ignore me AGAIN. But now, aren't u ignoring me again? sigh.

today went out with PKY and ZM after sch. play arcade to release stress=)

THE WORLD DOESNT LIKE ME !!!!!!!!!!!!

KANASAI.

why this kinda bad things always happen TO ME? I don understand WHY that person is treating me like this? like when You wish that person happy birthday and that person didnt even thank u and instead replied with 3 dots. How WOULD you feel ah ???????????????? If nv reply still nvm, DOT ME for wad

And since i didnt msg u and u also don seem to bother at all, perhaps it means that i am insignificant and like a piece of shit to u ba? OK NVM. u don sms me, I SMS U LOR. EVEN I SMS U TELLING U I FEEL SAD CUZ OF U, U JUS TELL ME U WAN TO SLEEP AND CLOSE SESAME LIAO. YOU ROCK MY SOCKS MAN !

I keep telling myself "u are not that bad u are not that bad" but now i really think U ARE BAD, cuz u don care abt other ppl's feelings, ESPECIALLY ME. YES, u denied that i am a piece of shit to u but u're treating me the SHITTY WAY so that makes me a piece of shit. IF U REALLY THINK I AM SHIT, THEN TELL ME LA, SO I KNOW WAD. IF U DON TELL ME, HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW I AM SHIT TO U? If i am not shit to u, then why are treating me the shitty way? don u have past experiences before? don u noe IT HURTS?

LOL. IS THIS CALL KARMA? U are treating me like how the ppl in the past are doing to u. i am your fa xie tong?

SERIOUSLY, THINGS CANT GO ON IN THIS MANNER.

TELL U SOMETHING... I AM GIVING UP !!!!!!!!!!!! EVEN I CANT I AM FORCING MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!
aiya so wad? maybe it wont even affect u la.. u wont bother one.. give up give up lor.. nothing big. i 4ever don contact u, u oso nothing one

right? if im right i guess i've definitely made the right choice
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Anyway,
I got back my chem paper today. Mdm Goh said alot of ppl failed but she said i improved ! yay
I got a grade which is between U and S. So it's a T? haha =P

Farting Contest



HAHAHA LAUGH TILL U DROP !!!!!!! XD It is REALLY FUNNY !!! ON YOUR SPEAKER!!

I GIVE UP STUDYING STATISTICS LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tried to study myself but like every question oso dunno how to do. Zzz.
wanted to asked for help BUT almost everyone i asked say that they cant HELP ME.
Even finally got one of my friends to help BUT it seems like almost every question oso need to ask, i guessed i must have irritated him with so many questions so i didnt dare to ask much, and cuz he was oso doing his work.

FAIL WITH FLYING COLOURS LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DUNNO STATISTICS LA!!!!!!!!!!!!! and STATISTICS OCCUPY 50% OF THE ENTIRE PAPER !!!!!!!!
LOOK HOW TERRIBLY I'LL DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

something terrible happened today.

my father hit me again. It has been many many years since he hit me. I still remembered the other time when he hit me not long ago was when he slapped me 2 times on my face cuz i did not give him a good attitude when talking to him, but that was cuz i was feeling really stressed. y so big already still hit?

This time was because of the com, and THANKS TO MY MOTHER'S BIG MOUTH. I did not mean to say my mother but sometimes her mouth really... argh!!!!!!!!!!

My father confiscated my laptop, cuz he dont want us to play games AT ALL. Once he sees me on the com, especially when he sees me playing games, he will immediately nag nag nag or shout at me.So, i could only play when he goes out. I could use the other com but my sis was using it. Yeah, so i took out the laptop( i knew where he hid it) and played for around 1.5 hours. My mother saw me using the laptop, and u should know wad happened. SHE TOLD MY FATHER EVERYTHING WHEN HE CAME BACK. He was so angry that he took out CANES ( not 1 but 2) and hit me. although he only hit me 2 stokes on my body, but still...

I just dont understand why cant my parents just let us use the com to RELAX??????? We are already so stressed abt our studies, but why cant just play games to release stress??? why cant we go online to chat??? why why why?? MY LIFE IS NOT JUST ABT STUDYING PIANO STUDYING PIANO STUDYING PIANO. other than doing these 2 things, i cant think of other things that he wants me to do


I NEED HELP ON STATISTICS !!!!!!!!!!!!! SOBS

2 WEEKS OF EXAMS TORTURE !!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and guess what? i was invited by a teacher to perform piano on college day? lol

thanks karissa for d gifts from europe!! i love d piano magnet very much! :D

oh well. had intensive studying from day to night these pass few days? including tuition.

today had math mock paper in the morning. Then went to the macs near NP to study with karissa and ernah. Then in the evening went to 4/5 BBQ at alvin's house. i was almost lost when finding d way. i went to the wrong condo. lol !! anyway feel good to see the 4/5 ppl again.













happy birthday Eugene !!

11th June
went to study with the CHR ppl at woodlands lib. At first i met eugene and his friend, and then coincidentally saw cheng ken, and so he joined us and then wei hern came, coincidentally esther and han wei were there also.

In the end it was like a CHR gathering !!! hahaha !! even took photos. LOL


pros !! (excluding me)


mugging session cum CHR gathering :D