mixed feelings. This feeling is like everything mixed together(confused,shocked,sad,happy).

At least i feel better now. (=

Perhaps it's actually a good thing.

Maybe there will be one day..

there's a verse in the bible which i've read, it was so coincidental that makes me feel like God is trying to tell me something. Maybe he has already planned the way? or asking me to wait?
I have no idea but i guess everything has a possibility