thanks karissa for d gifts from europe!! i love d piano magnet very much! :D

oh well. had intensive studying from day to night these pass few days? including tuition.

today had math mock paper in the morning. Then went to the macs near NP to study with karissa and ernah. Then in the evening went to 4/5 BBQ at alvin's house. i was almost lost when finding d way. i went to the wrong condo. lol !! anyway feel good to see the 4/5 ppl again.













happy birthday Eugene !!

11th June
went to study with the CHR ppl at woodlands lib. At first i met eugene and his friend, and then coincidentally saw cheng ken, and so he joined us and then wei hern came, coincidentally esther and han wei were there also.

In the end it was like a CHR gathering !!! hahaha !! even took photos. LOL


pros !! (excluding me)


mugging session cum CHR gathering :D

This relationship is going no where.

are u playing with my feelings? or wad? i dunno. i really dunno. I have this feeling cuz u doesnt seem to bother abt me. It seems like u only bother when u feel like it, while other times we r no different from strangers. Good friends... they encourage,share problems, joke and laugh with each other,but why aren't we like that? aren't we suppose to be like that? aren't we suppose to feel happy? i feel alright in the past, but now, why sometimes i feel the opposite? i feel as if we have nothing to talk to each other although i tried to?? I feel as if im the only one trying to encourage u perhaps i think when u need it. wad abt me? Is "dunno la" an encouragement when im upset or does it show that u dont seem to bother? i really dunno.


seriously stop saying "dunno la". i hate that phrase.That phrase doesnt mean anything AT ALL.


It's as though im always the only one who is trying to save this relationship, and the person doesnt do anything abt it. Now although it seems that this relationship is saved, but the situation doesn't seem to be better.

i still feel that if i forever nv msg u, u will nv msg me. If i forever nv contact u anymore, will u contact me? or even wonder y? i doubt so... It's not that i mind tt im always the one msging u, but dont u have anything else more to say meh? other than always zzz or dots.

seriously i regret meeting up with u after your test that day. Is it after u had wad u wanted and thats it? i dunno, i felt that way cuz after that day we seem like we r strangers again. I tried and hope to make things better by msging u, however i don think it's going to be of much use, so perhaps i should stop.

I don feel like saving this relationship anymore, cuz i feel there isn't any point to save it. That person dont seem to care or bother even if i dont. Even i didnt contact the person, i don think the person even cares. perhaps that person thinks it's insignificant? or maybe we just cant get along? or maybe the person doesn't even feel that this relationship is drifting apart? i dont know but i do feel it.

perhaps even after reading this, u'll just ZZZ at me and don intend to do anything abt it. If that's the case,then i really don see any point in continuing this relationship.

BUT if that's not the case, then at least prove me wrong by showing that u are trying to make things better. perhaps even just a msg will make me feel better.



why would i bother to blog abt it at this time? if u weren't significant do u think i'll bother???

finally i can heave a sigh of relief. *PHEW* It's OVER.

Yesterday spent the whole night doing my programme notes and finally managed get it done.


Cover page. nice right? yeah don need to tell me i know it's nice...haha!

My programme :

JS BACH --------------------------------------14.25"
Partita no. 2 in C minor

Beethoven ------------------------------------14.37"
Sonata in E flat Op 81a

Chopin ---------------------------------------10.15"
Scherzo Op 31 no 2

today morning managed to practise a while, then went to the place at milennia walk(stupid place). the place was so difficult to find can! #$*^%$# I was running here and there frantically with my court shoes and panting like a dog cuz i was going to be late. damn that place.

After quickly changing my clothes,i was still panting like a dog lah and they were rushing me to go in and play already, cuz d examiner(an old ang moh guy) came out n was like asking "where is the candidate?!". LOL.didnt even let me catch my breath =.= but the good thing is i didnt had the chance to be nervous ! hahaha! generally i think it went ok... although i played wrong notes but at least i didnt stopped, and didnt have any serious memory slip. phew phew phew.

since i didnt have any page turner with me, i had to flip myself for Bach.I memorised the last 2 pieces and had a bit of memory slip.sian.=(
In total the whole thing lasts for about 40mins !

at the end of the whole recital, the examiner smiled and said : " i thought u were not coming" lol !!


see the small door there? that's the examination room.. and outside there's lots of grand pianos !!


and more pianos!!!! so cool...




IT'S OVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9 DAYS TO MID YRS !!!!!!!!!!!

Here's a birthday song:

Happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU my dear ZM !!! =P

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TOMORROW !!! TOMORROW !!! TOMORROW IS THE DAY !!!

MY LTCL RECITAL.. ho hum... Im scared. hmm actually im not.. im just scared that i'll be nervous and may have memory breakdown and hit wrong notes and... and... well nobody knows what may happen...

hope it'll turn out WELL. =)

Guess wad? I had egg today for lunch, and was so surprised cuz inside there's 2 egg york !! LOL !

COOL eh?

GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND STOP CONTROLLING ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY DOES HE KEEP IRRITATING ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE SPOILS MY DAY EVERYDAY !!!!!!!

WHY CANT HE JUST STOP KEEP TELLING ME DOING THIS AND THAT AND STOP HIS NONSENSE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CUZ I AM SUPER PISSED OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!

It's not that i never try to ignore his calls. I ignored( switch off my hp) and i even screamed at him on the phone and slammed the phone, cuz i am SOOOOOOOO frustrated, but he still never gives up!!!! He always say he wont keep asking me do this do that after i showed him that i am pissed, but after a while he is his old self again

i can never be happy, cuz even actually my face is =) , then after see his call , my face immediately become =(.

and u know wad? monday is his birthday !!!!!!! i bet no matter wad it takes he's going to make me celebrate with his family, and make me play play play, play piano for him

right now my nose is still blocked. If it's not blocked, it runs non stop, and tears keep coming out making me difficult to open my eyes. Argh !!!

oh know wad? I MUST HAVE GONE NUTS. i went to look for the person. unbelievable. it's not as if i have nothing better to do. i have LOADs of work waiting for me. LOl

i spent so much effort hoping that things will turn better. will it ? will it?

"dunno la" is definitely not a way to solve a problem.

i really dont wish to keep thinking too much, but sometimes u just cant help it. everyday think think think. the nite before ytd dream, ytd also dream ,today will dream again or not???



Today's CHINESE TUITION was GREAT.

i don hate chinese that much anymore!!!!

Chinese lit actually is so COOL, if u know wad it is talking about.